Well, I went in for my baseline U/S, ultrasound, and blood work yesterday. They found a 34 mm cyst on my right ovary. It's not terribly surprising. This is fairly common when going through treatments. I have always been susceptible to cysts, anyway. Then, when you throw in all of the hormones that I've been taking it can upset the ovaries a bit. I am slightly disappointed. But, as I've seen with the rest of this journey, everything happens for a reason.
The cyst will resolve itself and we should be on track to start again next month. The way Jim and I are looking at it, it gives his body another month to heal and produce some good swimmers. The cyst will not inhibit our trying on our own, so this month will be an all natural cycle.
Of course, the chances of conceiving on our own are pretty low. But, we did it once before so I'm not totally losing hope. This will be our 17th cycle and I'm praying that it's the last one, as well. There won't be much to update because we aren't doing treatments. But, I will be updating what little info I have. Thanks for reading!
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Sunday, February 5, 2012
CD1 - New Beginning
Aunt Flo, AF, showed up at 4 am this morning. For the past 6 months, and for 10 years before I got pregnant, I have gotten my period 14 days after I ovulated. It comes between 4-5 am....every time. This time, I got it 13 days after I ovulated. This leads me to believe that I ovulated a day earlier than we thought. I had a sneaking suspicion that this was the case, but my RE said I was wrong. I wish I would have pushed them a little harder, but I kept telling myself to trust in them and relax.
The reason I believe I O'd early is because I was having cramps all day the day before the IUI. The day of the IUI I had ZERO cramps. There were some other symptoms that are a bit gross that I'm sure no one wants to hear about.
I know that the first cycle of most IUI's is trial and error. So, I am going to take this cycle as a learning experience and I look forward to starting fresh this cycle.
We all went out for breakfast this morning to celebrate the first CD1 that I'm going to have this year. I'm hoping they up my dose a bit so we can add a couple more follies to the mix. Fingers crossed!
The reason I believe I O'd early is because I was having cramps all day the day before the IUI. The day of the IUI I had ZERO cramps. There were some other symptoms that are a bit gross that I'm sure no one wants to hear about.
I know that the first cycle of most IUI's is trial and error. So, I am going to take this cycle as a learning experience and I look forward to starting fresh this cycle.
We all went out for breakfast this morning to celebrate the first CD1 that I'm going to have this year. I'm hoping they up my dose a bit so we can add a couple more follies to the mix. Fingers crossed!
CD23 - Nevermind
A big part of infertility is the cost. You can prevent a pregnancy with a $6 box of condoms and a prayer. But, if you are having trouble conceiving, then you better be ready to sell a body part or a large amount of illegal drugs. Treatment for infertility is extremely expensive. There are a lot of people who don't even have medical coverage. If you do, you are a very lucky person to have infertility coverage. I don't understand the lack of coverage. After all, it is a medical condition that deserves to be treated.
When you go see a fertility specialist, RE, you speak with 3 people. First is the doctor, of course. Next is the person you do most of your work with, the nurse. And third, is the financial consultant. The third component to any RE's office is one of the most important people you will ever deal with in your life. This person basically tells you the best or the worst news. Either you have coverage and this is what you can afford. Or, you don't and this is what you'll have to pay.
We are lucky enough to have some coverage. We were awarded 12k lifetime infertility coverage. This would cover ONE IVF cycle. That is without testing or anything. After all of our testing, we had 9k left. After our first IUI cycle, we had $7,500. I thought that because we already had all of the meds, we could make it work with what we had left. After speaking with #3 yesterday, I have realized that this is not so.
We would have to pay quite a bit out of pocket in order do get one cycle done. Then, we'd have to pay even more if we had to freeze any embryos.
So, we are sticking with the IUI plan. I was pretty upset at first, but then I got a very obvious sign that everything will be ok. I am very into signs and I really believe that something has been guiding us along. Also, I really think that now that we have altered Jim's diet and got his Vitamin D deficiency under control that things will improve. Of course, I will update as much as I can. Thanks for reading.
p.s. This blog was mostly written on CD23. But, I got interrupted and wasn't able to complete it until a couple days later. Thanks!
When you go see a fertility specialist, RE, you speak with 3 people. First is the doctor, of course. Next is the person you do most of your work with, the nurse. And third, is the financial consultant. The third component to any RE's office is one of the most important people you will ever deal with in your life. This person basically tells you the best or the worst news. Either you have coverage and this is what you can afford. Or, you don't and this is what you'll have to pay.
We are lucky enough to have some coverage. We were awarded 12k lifetime infertility coverage. This would cover ONE IVF cycle. That is without testing or anything. After all of our testing, we had 9k left. After our first IUI cycle, we had $7,500. I thought that because we already had all of the meds, we could make it work with what we had left. After speaking with #3 yesterday, I have realized that this is not so.
We would have to pay quite a bit out of pocket in order do get one cycle done. Then, we'd have to pay even more if we had to freeze any embryos.
So, we are sticking with the IUI plan. I was pretty upset at first, but then I got a very obvious sign that everything will be ok. I am very into signs and I really believe that something has been guiding us along. Also, I really think that now that we have altered Jim's diet and got his Vitamin D deficiency under control that things will improve. Of course, I will update as much as I can. Thanks for reading.
p.s. This blog was mostly written on CD23. But, I got interrupted and wasn't able to complete it until a couple days later. Thanks!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
CD21(still) - IVF
Me: I think we should do IVF
Jim: Really? Ok. If that's what you think is best.
It was really that easy. We chatted a little bit about logistics after that but it was really that easy. It was a huge relief coming to this decision. I still don't know what I'll do if it doesn't work. But, at least I'll never look back and wonder.
Of course, IVF is a completely different animal than IUI. So, I will update more on that soon. For now, I believe that good things are in the works for us.
Jim: Really? Ok. If that's what you think is best.
It was really that easy. We chatted a little bit about logistics after that but it was really that easy. It was a huge relief coming to this decision. I still don't know what I'll do if it doesn't work. But, at least I'll never look back and wonder.
Of course, IVF is a completely different animal than IUI. So, I will update more on that soon. For now, I believe that good things are in the works for us.
CD21 - Having Doubts About IUI
I have been back and forth and up and down about IVF since insemination day. Since day 1 of TTC #2 we said that IUI was as far as we would go. This was because we thought if it wasn't meant to be, it wasn't meant to be. Also, we had 10k left in our insurance cap which would only get us one round and it seemed too daunting to imagine. Honestly, I NEVER thought that we would even get to IUI, let alone IVF.
So, now that I've had meds donated, I could get this past IUI and one IVF cycle in and still meet my insurance cap. I might even be able to get a FET in, if lucky enough to have frosties. I am SOOOOOOO confused!
As it stands now, I could definitely get 2 or 3 more IUI's with injections. Of course, with our most recent insemination numbers so low, 8 mil with 10% motile, I'm not sure if that will ever really work.
I look at how wonderful life is with just DD and me at home all day and I''m really at peace with the, "If it happens, it happens," kind of attitude.
Then there are some days that I bawl my eyes out thinking about not having another baby or seeing Emmy with a sibling.
I know that IVF would give us better odds. But, I don't think I could fathom the heartache if it didn't work. If we couldn't get KU doing the mother of all treatments, then all hope will be lost.
Why can't I just be OK with having one?! I am so tired of feeling this way and I am also tired of altering my entire life for something that should be so easy.
So, now that I've had meds donated, I could get this past IUI and one IVF cycle in and still meet my insurance cap. I might even be able to get a FET in, if lucky enough to have frosties. I am SOOOOOOO confused!
As it stands now, I could definitely get 2 or 3 more IUI's with injections. Of course, with our most recent insemination numbers so low, 8 mil with 10% motile, I'm not sure if that will ever really work.
I look at how wonderful life is with just DD and me at home all day and I''m really at peace with the, "If it happens, it happens," kind of attitude.
Then there are some days that I bawl my eyes out thinking about not having another baby or seeing Emmy with a sibling.
I know that IVF would give us better odds. But, I don't think I could fathom the heartache if it didn't work. If we couldn't get KU doing the mother of all treatments, then all hope will be lost.
Why can't I just be OK with having one?! I am so tired of feeling this way and I am also tired of altering my entire life for something that should be so easy.
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