CD1 - The Break Is Over

     This break month has been quite a run. We did everything we weren't supposed to. Everything that we've been avoiding the past six months was thrown out the window. The only thing we stuck to was Jim's gluten free diet. This is something that I believe he will always have to stick to, unfortunately.
     This break was SO needed. I feel a renewed energy. I was feeling so bogged down by treatment and sticking to a very narrow way of living. I was avoiding the following:

-refined sugar
-wheat
-caffeine
-bananas
-pears
-dairy
-alcohol
-cold foods
-raw foods

     I'm sure there is more that I can't remember right now. But, this was all being done to follow a traditional Chinese medicine diet that is supposed to help balance me for pregnancy. Physically, I feel really good on the diet. But, as you can see, it doesn't leave much room. That can be exhausting.
     This month, I enjoyed everything on this list. Some, all in one day. Our last night of our break month was filled with a lot of dancing, a lot of bad food, and a whole lot of booze. Yikes, we are feeling it today.
     I am really excited, though! I feel like in 28 days we will have our answer and it feels pretty good. Of course, there's a bit of sadness. But, mostly excitement. Last night proved that our lives can be full of life, family, friends, and so much fun. I am so in love with my husband and we have the rest of our lives to laugh together. That means more than anything.
     Of course, I will always be sad for Emmy. But, it just means that we'll have to put extra effort into spending time with her and making sure she has plenty of friends and family surrounding her. So excited for what's next! I will go in for a monitoring appointment tomorrow and will update more then.

CD? - Reasessing the Future

     I spoke in an earlier post about envisioning my future and mourning the loss of it. I am realizing that instead of mourning what I don't have, I need to reassess some goals. Of course, not being able to have a baby is a sad thing. However, it doesn't need to ruin my life and define who I am.
     I recently picked up an issue of Country Living. I was looking for some ideas for this coming spring. What I found was an inspiration.

http://www.countryliving.com/homes/house-tours/farmhouse-decorating-ideas#slide-1

     This is an old farmhouse on 50 acres of land. It has countless outhouses full of beds for guests, dining tables, chickens, and on and on. They speak of tons of guests coming and hanging out. It is a destination for all of their family and friends. I imagine us waking up with a compound full of guests. Making a breakfast buffet for them all and lazing around with the various animals traipsing about. Ahhhh, how relaxing does that sound?!
     I am so excited about the future. Who knows what it really holds, but I know that our little family will be together and that's all that matters. Take a look at the article and read about their life. It seems pretty fullfilling to me.